Requiem for a Disillusioned Retail Slave

Whoops, I suddenly realized that I have another blog that I have neglected to post anything in for over a week. I knew having a third blog was going to be trying, but I didn't expect to forget about it entirely.

So, I have been getting absoluetly sick of my job in the past couple of weeks. It's really no one's fault--I am just tired of all of the bull shit that comes with working in customer service. I have been thinking lately--there are several local newspapers in this area that are always looking for articles, stories, and what not. Hmmm. I looked up the Lake Michigan College schedule on the net yesterday, and more hmmmm. They have a few journalism courses, and one of them includes lectures from a former staff member of the Herald Palladium, the newspaper for the St Joe/Benton Harbor/Stevensville area. The third hmmmm....I like to write. Or more to the point, I USED to like it. I wrote short stories, papers for my college classes that far surpassed the writing levels of anyone else in my classes. I always got straight A's in the writing classes--sure, my use of grammar and syntax has waned a bit since then, but that's mostly due to the world wide web---no one cares if you spell right or punctuate correctly, and it's more common to just figure out what someone is saying by the way it looks or sounds. Anyway, the point is---I am thinking of taking a few journalism classes, but I may not do it in the middle of winter as driving in this state in the winter is chore enough what with the snow and ice that we inevitably receive. Hell, it's already snowed once, and winter doesn't even officially start for another 6 weeks! And its supposed to snow again tonight. Doesn't everyone just want to move here to Michigan with me? LOL.

Things at home are fairly calm. The roommate has been minding her own business, and with her preparing to move out in the next month or so, she's been spending a lot of time over at her new place getting it cleaned up. She's also having a new roof put on, so that will take a little longer, but that is okay. We have been getting along all right since the news that she will be moving out for sure. Funny how that happens, right? You know what they say though---if you want to end a friendship, move in together! Works like a charm every time. But sadly, even after all she has done to me, I still care about maintaining a passable relationship with her. We've been friends for almost 6 years---it seems a shame to just throw it all away on a whim. But one thing is for sure, I no longer trust her with anything---I make sure that I turn everything off on the computer before I go anywhere, I've changed all my passwords to everything, AGAIN, and I don't leave my cell phone laying around, nor the bills, nor any other little notes that I may make for myself. She can't handle herself, she is nosy, but fortunately, I won't have to be dealing with it for very much longer. That is good news.

I have been talking to Jt online for a month now. It's funny, but I just realized the other day---we chat on MSN, gay.com, and myspace. We've done voice chats on MSN and we've had lunch together twice now. In this time---I've never even thought to ask him his last name. Nor have we exchanged phone numbers. Isn't that strange? I guess I'm going to have to get on top of doing those things, LOL, as he is such a nice fella, and I don't want to lose contact with my new friend. A real life friend, believe it or not! I still DO meet people from time to time. I know, it's amazing for a social recluse such as myself to actually get out there and meet a real person, but I took my friend Andrea's advice somewhat to heart when she said I should find a new friend, find someone to talk with, to laugh with, to do....other things with.....and it really stabbed me in the heart when the girl I've known since we were 6 years old told me that she didn't really know who I was anymore.

Hmmm---this blog ended up in a totally different place than where it started. I guess I had a few things to talk about, but that's okay. This is what happens when I don't have anyone else to talk to at 7:30 in the morning because almost all of the rest of the world is still asleep, LOL. I talk to the computer. Sometimes the computer is a stronger listener than any person. The computer doesn't mind if I swear, or if I give it a weeee bit too much information on occasion. The computer doesn't mind if I get up and ignore it for a while. The computer isn't judgmental--it agrees with whatever I type into it. And the computer is always here for me, barring any electrical failures, which actually don't happen here all that often. Unlike my parents, who live out in the sticks---countryside homes in Michigan, what a laugh. The wind blows in Arkansas, and their power goes out. LOL. Ahhhh, I miss the seclusion and the quiet living. I don't miss any other part about it. Funny that.

Well, I'd better get to posting this, and move on to something else. I was hoping Jt would log on to MSN this morning so we could share some more banter before I have to go to work, but that's another thing. I really have no idea what kind of schedule he truly keeps. I just know that he gets up almost as early as I do every day, and that he's online for a better part of the evening, when he's sitting downstairs, hiding out from his pseduo boyfriend that doesn't want to spend any time with him. Funny---I hide out in front of the computer when I want to get away from my roommate. But most of the time, we're not home together anyway. I guess that's another reason I'm going to be happier when she goes. More me time. Time to do what I want. When I want. And I can do it naked if I want. Ah, the freedom. I can't wait. =)